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Name: angela christine
Interests: USC TROJANS baby!....& SBG gospel choir, Joint Educational Project, becoming more emeric-fied day by day and chillin with the Crew...watchin Felicity with rahscone...and kickin it with my baby ;-)
Expertise: procrastinating off the wall (and yet somehow always pullin it off).....annnd singin jazz, laughing at myself, and watching ZOOLANDER!!
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|Our Father, who art in Coliseum,|
Victory be thy name.
Thy title come, thy will be done,
in game as it was in practice.
Give us this day our daily reception,
and forgive us our penalties, as we forgive
those who jump offsides against us.
Lead us not into the neutral zone,
but deliver us from all interceptions.
For thine is the Cardinal, the Gold,
and the spirit of Troy
now and forever.
so pretty much i haven't touched my xanga since i came back to san jo, but mostly in part cuz i didn't really have much to say. now that my summer is half over (DAMN!) i can look back and see that i really haven't accomplished....anything. but that's okay. i have been spending a lot of quality time with my family, volunteering for the santa clara vanguard, running errands for my family members, and rediscovering shitty daytime tv. a lot of things have changed, as far as my priorities and how i spend my time and who i spend it with, and at times it has been really hard dealing with the changes. i kinda feel as though a part of me is pushing people away, but the thing that freaks me out is that i dont really know why. i just think that there are parts of me i'm trying to change and i just need time to really figure myself out. sounds weird....and i dont really even know how to explain it, but things are just different now. i'm sorry to anyone who feels like i've been pushing them away.....i guess i just need some time. i really really really want to go down to LA....long distance relationships are hard; do-able, but after a while just really hard. i really can't wait to go back to LA and get back into the swing of everything. but it's nice being back here in san jo and getting to relax and stuff. i have a few performance gigs comin up, leading worship at my church and at a different church in san jo, so if anyone wants to check it out, let me know. i might get a job starting up a worship band at my mom's church, and i am STOKED for that. that's my element, what i do best. i really hope that works out. anyways.....hope everyone's enjoyin themselves. much love. *mex*
|Hey guys, |
Usually I'd wait to post on somethin like this but I will never get this day back so I'm gonna write while I've still got it. Today was the last day of my freshman year in college. (not to mention cinco de mayo, double whammy for me!) Looking back, it is so incredible to think about how much things have changed, everything I have learned (both in and out of the classroom), and how much I've grown as a person. This has truly been an incredible year. I feel like I have the same feelings I had a year ago right before I graduated--how much I've learned, grown, blahblahblah. But this time it's so much different. On such a deeper level, and with so much more ahead of me. Now I know what that "ahead of me" sorta looks like, college is nothing new, I've lived a year of it, and I've got lots more to come. While the transition of finishing up your first year is a significant one, in some ways I realize that this feeling will never really go away. Next year is going to be 100% different from this one. Instead of the dorms, I'll be in an apartment. Instead of on-campus, I'll be living off-campus. Instead of a few music classes and some GE's, I'll have 8 intensive music courses and 1 GE. Instead ot 12 hours a week, I'll be working 20. Everything is getting stepped up a few notches. The overwhelming part of this is that from now on, the whole "stepping up a few notches" thing is never going to go away. Year after year after year, life steps it up a few, expectations get higher, and you've gotta learn to take care of your shit in a better and more efficient way than you did before. Needless to say, for the rest of your life, people, organizations, record companies, whatever--are ALWAYS going to be demanding more from you. The reassuring part of this is, they will never demand more of you than you can offer at that point in time. Once you do step it up, you'll chill there for a while and then step it up again. The hard part is in getting over my fears of actually sackin up and goin' for it. (I'm talkin mostly about vocal jazz here, scares the shit outta me it's so hard.) I have a lot to learn, much to improve on, and yet somehow I am reassured in the fact that I am on the right track. At least I am here, showing up, taking care of my shit, and never failing to keep the future in mind. College is an incredible experience. I see why people say they are the best years of your life. And I can look back right now and say I have just lived one of the best years of my life. Incredible. I am looking forward to going home to nor*cal for the summer, and without a doubt I know that that will be a transition to get through in and of itself. But I have no doubts that it won't be a bomb ass time, filled with lots of laughter and always good memories. I hope everyone finishes strong, and lives each day with passion because without it, life is absolutely pointless. Stay up everyone, much much love.